Good or bad luck

I dunno how to explain my day..
I dunno whether to say it's a lucky day or an unlucky one..
Woke up at 9=good,though i slept at only 5=bad
Makan breakfast early=good,everyone was still asleep no one teman me=bad
Walk home on the way see mum come back from pasar..
Get go home faster=good,no get to in money for friend=bad
Left the house ony bout 11+..When reach skul..
Carmen Soon leaving=good,Yin Hui oso leaving=bad
Taking result..
See chinese teacher=bad, but take result so nice=good
Come down see friend..
He get worse result then me=good,maybe i lose to everage class A=bad
Leave school..
Go out and makan=good,kena ask to eat a lot=bad
Go home..
Get to use computer=good,but only for awhile=bad
Go swimming..
Get to swim=good,kena muscle cram almost both legs+maybe got fever=bad
Makan..
Food is nice=good,cousin keep asking me leave darling to for a klang gf=BAD!!
Back..
Reach home everything start become bad..
Come home no good result or anything..
Then coz forget swimming trunk kena marah..
Then.. nothing liao i guess..
Oh ya, phone oso think spoil d!!!
So cham... i dunno wat im gonna do without my phone
Sigh

Sigh

Darling go on cruise le, so miss her.. Though ony bout 2 hours no sms her, miss her like mad..
I jz now said something i dunno is forgivable a not..
I called her a drug..
Is it right to call her my drug??
But one way it's true..
For example, drug addicts are addicted to drugs..
But for me, she's my drug..
After awhile not being with her, the addiction will take place..
First, i'll miss her damn a lot yearning for her voice..
But after some time, the addiction will be overly great making me start to think negatively again.
Then, i wont know wat to do..
I'll break my promise again coz i ad promise not to think negatively anymore..
Sorry darling, i'll try my best not to kay??
Love you

Wrong thoughs

If you wanna read this post, first i wana tell you something..
Don't think too much.. I thought too much so i wrote this but i was wrong..
But i didn't wanna delete it oso.. So mustwell, post it right?

Darling, sorry it's all my fault.
I know that i suck and never did deserve you.
But i still continued loving you the same.
Now though i know that you no longer love me but i'll continue loving you sorry.
You may not want to leave me for fearing some stuff so i'll take the first step to leave you and just love you from afar.
As long as you're happy, it's good enough for me.
Everyday i've been waiting for you for your dad never did want us to be together till i even got sick and still am but i continues waiting for if get to be with you for even 5 minutes, dying's also worth it.
I guess, i may change my blog,email and block you from everywhere.
So that you'l go back to your old life as if i never did exist in your life.
But i'll continue loving you imagining that you're happy always.
I don't think i'll continue with my blog for it reali hurts bad enough.
Every second without you hurts my hear like a knife piercing through it but it was worth it.
I got to be with you though not forever but for a period long enough making me really happy.
And i'll never love anyone else like i promised.
You're the only one i'll love till forever.
So i guess i should tell you goodbye then.
I guess this is how it feels to be forced to leave the one you love in order for them to be happy even if it means having to hurt oneself..
But nevermind, you taught me loads of new stuff making me a diferent person from before.
I really done know how i'll live without you or if i'll continue living a not but i guess you'll never know.
You'll be too busy with other people never needing to care bout me ever again.
Sigh, i guess i was always jealous of him for being able to be with you more and closer yet i'm like invisible to you.
I guess i was always jealous bout the people round you especially those you're very close with yet hated thse who touched you without your permission.
But now, i can be jealous and do things i wanted to do, to be emo and hurt myself again.
Sigh, why am i still writing this blog now.
I already cant stand the pain so i guess this is really the final words i'll tell you..
Darling, i'm sorry for my past wrong doings.
I'll still love you i guess but i'll never tell you, you will never know.
But i just wish you'll be happy so i'll perish from your life forever.
I love you

2days blog

Sry ya i so long no write blog.. One there's nothing for me to swite.. And two, i dont have the mood to write..
So now im going back time writing one day by one day backwards..

Today, nothing happened..
Woke up at 7, couldn't get up so continue half asleep till 9..
Got up started playing computer and have my breakfast..
Ps ya to those i reply so slow coz i bz playing game and missing my daring..
Then bout 4.30 go swimming..
Starting no ppl then bout 5, more and more ppl come till pool full..
Stop swimming at 6.30 then go mandi.. toilet pula hotwater awhile ony then no hot liao..
So mandi cold water lu freezing..
For a few days ad keep swimming and weather somemore so cold..
If get sick, i wont be shocked..
Btw, today i finally got Qiao Zhen to say ok i help her reload^^
She thought i was asking other things but too bad for her xD
Like this normal boring day lu..

Yesterday oso normal..
Woke up bout 9 oso.. Got up and go downstair..
Lol, do nothing no makan then start wash car.. Dad wan lend car to friend from Sabah..
So finish wash, go Taylors drop sis in college coz she going singapura wif friend..
Then meet dad friend lu..
Dad de friend de daughter say GPS so noisy..
Coz dad wanted to lend his friend.. But lucky she ony complain awhile..
Go makan then seperate..
We go but freezer.. When buy d, i go kepo help the person carry put in car..
Mum oula scold me why help... Say me later hurt my back more..
Lol, like i dont know that.. But it's no fun not being able to carry heavy stuff..
After that, go buy DVD.. So long no go that shop buy liao..
When buy, took bout 30 disc but pay bout 160+ ony i think..
Lucky boss not there boss de mother take money..
Or not boss bit not happy wif the price de..
Finish come back lu, the go Berkerly makan dinner..
Eat claypot chicken rice and pork stomach soup..
Eat tio full then come back home.. Whole day no on computer..
Then start chat wif Qiao Zhen lu..
Suddenly she say dun wan chat wif me liao wor.. say later i small gas!!
Lol, i dunno wat to say liao her..
She say i reply slow but that's coz my internet suddenly down..
She pula reply even slower and complain me!!
Henh, so bad Qiao Zhen, blame me for your own faults..
Then change com at bout 12.. Play till bout 3am then sleep liao..
Jia Le ask me sleep early so i listen to her sleep lu..

The days before i dun reali remember wat happened so i lazy write le ps

suffering

Sigh, i need help, i dunno what to do now...

If you have a choice to make which would you choose..

1-to die or 2-to be half paralysed

Which should i choose i dont know..

Everyday the pain gets worse dunno gonna go operation..

If it's too late, bottom half of my body will be permanently paralysed..

If go operation, i wont be able to sit down for 10 days...

Sigh, which to choose which to choose...

promise

Life for me sucks, it hurts me everyday.

There's nothing to do, nothing to say totally.

Bring hurt by everyday, missing you every night.

I wish to die, yet never can i.

For i had promised, to never leave you.

Promised you that forever, be by your side.

I love you fully, more then you know.

No god or devil, will pull us apart.

God devil man souls, i swear that forever.

Your power i'm immune, from blocking my love.

Love you'll never control, live you'll never conquer.

Love with my heart, live with my life.

Heart beating for her, life protecting her always.

Our love is immune, protected by only ourselves.

Though others object, we make our future.

Love you my darling, promise you together forever.

My love'll never fail, promise i'll forever keep.

forgive

I wish to die, yet can never die.

For i have promised, to continue on living.

My life right now, is worse then hell.

Death would be better, for everyone and me.

I won't hurt others, others can't hurt me.

For if i'm dead, everyone will never remember.

The life i lived, will all be forgotten.

But wrongs i did, will never be forgiven

Time

A time to miss, a time to love.

Missing you always, loving you forever.

Being there for you, in joy and sorrow.

I swear my vow, my loyalty and love.

To you my darling, only forever to you.

Though looks will change, my feelings never will.

For however you become, my feelings never change.

You could be perfection, or even a freak.

Love you the same, feelings will never distinguish,

Though life was bitterness, you proved me wrong.

Just because of you, i have changed plenty.

I don't know how, to ever thank you.

I may be ugly, stupid and a brat.

I have hurt you, hurt you very deeply.

Didn't want do it, but facts cant change.

But there is something, is your choice right?

Do you or not, regret anything about this.

Because i have blocked, all negative thoughts.

I have of you, those i'll ever have.

But in my heart, i feel something wrong.

Having continues sleepless nights, but cant realise why.

Is there something wrong, are you avoiding me?

Many days passed by, your behaviour also changes.

Isit because of me, the stress you're in?

Apology

Qiao Zhen i'm sorry, to you i'm sorry.

The things that happened, is all my fault.

i never should have, hurt or scold you.

You did nothing wrong, i did everything wrong.

You treated me good, i didn't deserve them.

I scolded you badly, even said hated you.

But inside i know, i love you totally.

Not as a girlfriend, but i good friend.

I may have badly, puncture your tiny heart.

But doing my best, i'll try mending it.

You're a good person, but i'm not one.

I'm very truely sorry, wish could rewind time.

Wish i never had, hurt you ever sorry

MOODY!!!!

Last few days no update blog today ony got chance...

The cameron trip was fun back ad... Everyday there play play ony so nice..

Nothing special happened lu.. And sorry never write my poem...

Got people beside me that time, dun wan he see..

So now i write..

But 1st i write bout today..

Wake up at 7, solo 1 room coz brother go camp for one week xDDD

Wake up see got ppl reply a not but no1 reply..

Go back sleep, wake up sleep wake up sleep till bout 9.40

Beh tahan come down watch show..

Yesterday finish HELL GIRL2 ad now no show watch...

Then after that, sms darling lu and Qiao Zhen...

When sister go out, straight on computer start msn wif darling..

She tell me got a F***I** obasan trying to flirt wif her!!!!

I so wanna kill him, and i sorta lost my good mood and said a few very bad words, sry..

Then, nothing lu, jz keep feel like kill him and if he ever touches her again, i swear i'll kill him if it's the last thing i do!!

She doesn't want him!! SO F***ING OBASAN!! hands off!!!!!!!

@@

Long time no write blog liao, dunno wat to write...
Today went to cameron meaning im in cameron now..
Woke up at 8+ got ready..
Then went out buy chocolate first^^
Come back get ready 12++ ony leave @@
But what to do?? We're malaysians, follow malaysian's rules, be late!! xD
Then come here have fun lu..
5 families together in a bungalow, 20 people total... So full but still fun xD
2 o'clock oso not yet sleep me^^

Yesterday err, thursday..
Went out morning eat dim sum..
Then went to Shah Alam buy baju..
At night, went to (forgot where) eat BBQ steamboat..
The food so FRESH some..
They kill the prawn, fish, frog etc on the spot!!
BLEK, i know d dun dare eat liao..

Before this i cant remember anything so dun wan write ps
Btw, i wan write poem so whoever reads it, plz tell me how izit plz??
It's bored i think

okay..

Sorry to all views.. i haven't been updating my blog coz of 2 reasons..
1-I dun have acces to computer all the time.
2-I wanted to stop blogging for awhile first to think..
To Qiao Zhen, after thinking, i think i should apologize to you..
I dunno whether you are still viewing my blog a not but i'm sorry..
I dun dare to tell you straight but if you do read my blog, i'm reali sorry.
I have been a brat and i said thing too harshly to you..
Reali reali sorry, i'll do anything to make you forgive me..
So plz Qiao Zhen, sorry, a thousand times sorry..
I wish that never happened ever, sorry..

To darling, i miss you a lot night and day.
I dont know wat to do and no words can explain how much i miss you..
But i just wish you can stop whatever you're doing and accompany me for awhile plz?
Darling, i reali miss you night and day even during when of im asleep..
I know it's your life so i cant do anything but.
I just wish you'll accompany me for some time at least till the start of my camp.
I dont want to miss you all through camp missing all the fun so plz??

To mei, sorry i cant reali help you.
I know you miss him a lot and love him too.
But all the same, can he come to you and accept you more then her??
You have to think not hurt yourself so plz mei???
I care bout you a lot and i dun wan you hurt plz??
You are the one who wanted to be my sister so i have to accept the resposibility on taking care of you.
You cant just die and ignore the love of others towards you..
Diying doesn't solve your problems, it just makes things worse so plz mei??
For me, grip onto your life more and don't waste it like i did.
You can still change your future so plz??

sigh

Sigh Sigh Sigh, moody.......................
I dun wan live anymore...............................
Can some1 kill me...........................
My life is so bored and suffering.......................
Wat's the use of liveing when we're gonna die one day......................
Isn't it better to end our lives now??
I dun wan write blg today, no mood..
Ending here........................
Bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=X

Qiao Zhen, if you wan this to happen let me know..
Hate me if you want i dun wanna care anymore..
You have hurt me more then enough and i wont say anything else..
If you wan kill me, it would be loads better..
Then i'll never ever be hurt by you again..
You wont have to carebout anything else..
You wont have to be scared others will think wrongly..
Coz i do love you i swear but only as a friend..
You on the other hand, hurts me like it's normal to do so..
I wont say anything but this..
Sorry and byebye..
Never wanna see you again but wish that you will always be happy..
I am sorry for hurting you before if i did and i regret so..
But time has passed i cant make it turn back..
So this is the last time i'm telling you this..
Byebye, i'll miss you but i will try not to..
You brought me happiness but now it has all turned to sourness..
I am sorry, reali reali sorry..
Bye

No more

Yesterday never update blog coz sister back home ad..
Today coz everyone go out only got time to update.
Yesterday woke up at 3,4,5,6 no one was awake.
After that when they awake ony i get up.
Got ready left the house at bout 7
Went hospital reach at 9 but wait till 12, so broing nothing to do there.
When my turn, ony i found out it was a stupid scan.
So i go tukar baju and go lie down in the machine.
They go strap me up make me cant more =X
Then when i go into the machine, so loud till get headache.
Finish, was sooo hungry.
So i ate 4 pau, and 2 bowls of noodles but still hungry dunno why.
But i never ate anything else.
Reach home at bour 7 went to watch New Moon!!
It was freaking nice XD i want to watch again!!
Then reach home lie down on bed.
Get up read book till 4 ony sleep =3

Today, wake up at 9, so damn tired!!
Do some work till bout 12 then go sleep again, wake up at 4, so nice..
Do nothing lor till now.. boring day

sigh

Today's the last day i can online should be.
Tomorrow start cant online liao maybe.
Sis coming back from camp then i cant use her computer d.
Then, tomorrow i going checkup in hospital, scare scare ler.
Soon Yao and tomorrow start work, wish both of them good luck.
Tomorrow Daniel Lee and Gan Wey Chan birthday.
Wish you happy birthday, getting older d XD
Then, darling tomorrow coming back from holiday, but i'll be hospital.
Check up most probably gonna take bout 10 hours and cant eat from now till finish.
Sobz, how much i wish part of tomorrow never comes.

Okay, back to today, today woke up at 10 but slept at 6.
Ony slept 4 hours, eyes start become black d@.@
Wake up d start chatting wif friends on msn and facebook, sms wif darling.
Never eat breakfast and lunch eat at 4.
Then go play game awhile mum back.
Then i heard tomorrow going full body medical check up.
Wow, shocking dunno wat to do oso.
So like that whole day nothing to do lor.
Then darling say buy doggy, shih tzu home.
I ask her send me the pic and wow!! It was so cute!!
Those who wanna see the pic, come find me, i'll show you al how cute the doggy is XD
I oso wan the dog but cant buy yet my darling can.
But nvm, she happy can liao <3

It's 4.15 in the morning and im not asleep yet, im not even tired and im missing my darling too much.
Darling's coming back in one more day which is on tuesday.
So many things happening on that day.
Friend start work, sister come back from camp, darling come back from Thailand^^
But maybe from that day on, i wont be updating my blog anymore till school reopen.
I've been using her computer 'illegally' when she's in camp.
So when she comes back, i may not be able to use it any more.
I wanna use the computer as much as possible coz it's only bout 36 hours b4 my sister comes back.
I'll miss updating my blog and msning but no choice.
But most of all, i'll miss the time where i can chhat wif my darling on msn without thinking of wasting money==
Im not trying to be stingy or anything but just dad said phone bil under 50 this month or else.
Sobz, i dunno wat else to do when my sister returns home, anyone have any ideas?

Darling coming back^^

Today nothing do, wake up at 8 actually but keep going sleep up sleep till 12.
Was dreaming bout something but i dunno wat the dream meant.
Wake up d nothing do so read newspaper then mum say wan go buy stuff for camping.
I think think feel nothing buy but mum keep ask me go so go lor.
Bout 2 left the house, then go bata buy shoe first.
Bought skul shoe but nvr buy any camping/ outing shoe..
Then went carefour shopping.
End up buying skul stuff and nothing for camping except for a bit snacks.
Then, my darling told me she's coming back day after tomorrow from Thailand.
I was so happy but i was out and didn't wanna attract attention so i just acted like nothing happen.
Then finish shopping, already 6pm, parents are late for wedding dinner =3
So we rush home and they faster got ready.
Lucky i wasn't going so i just relax nia while thinking of how happy darling coming back^^
When they left, i eat dinner then start facebooking and msning.
So like this whole day boring except knowing that my darling's coming back Malaysia XD
I'm so happy i dun think i can stop being happy even after i sleep yippie^^
Darling i miss you sooo much, in Thailand very expensive cant call you and selom sms.
When your back, i promise to be by your side forever, love you darling forever muckz <3

Poem sorta

Im too bored and i cant stop missing you darling.
I cant do anything without thinking of you.
Sigh but i oso cant sms you or call you.
Dad said i must drop my usage till 50 bucks or my line gets cut off.
*Sob soB* i reali miss you soo much..
Since i cant do anything, i must well just copy the stuff i wrote here ==
Plz leave some comments ya, i wanna know how bad they are.

In the sea of flowers, there's no two flowers alike.
In the world of roses, there's always one hiding somewhere.
If you look closely, you will find it easily.
But when you find it, you will notice it's not perfect.
There'll still be something wrong, coz there's torns around it.
So you've to be careful, for something may go wrong.
You may acciddentally break it, or hurt by it's torns.
So you've to be gentle, before something goes very wrong.
Darling do you know that, you are the perfect rose.
Though there are still torns, i dun mind getting hurt.
I'll handle you with care, for fear of hurting you.
You do complete my life, without you life's total darkness.
I'm just a small fish, in the vastic blue ocean.
I'm just a tiny one, being curious of it's life.
I say and do things, end up getting into trouble.
I'm just a small fish, you're a perfect little flower.
From two total different worlds, we vow our true loyalty.
That we love each other, no matter who objects it.
Being there for the other, holding each other so closely.
We loyaly pledge our vow, promising as we say this.
We will love each other, no matter what lies ahead.
We will make our future, not following gods own planning.
Loving each other till end, being by the other's side.
Crossing oceans and climbing mountains, still being together we promise.
No human nor any being, stop us loving the other.
For our plans are made, to being together till forever.

boring

Today very bored nothing to do.
Wake up at 11 coz yesterday slept at 4.
Then started playing computer but it's reali boring.
Went to do some ironing oso feel so bored.
Tan Wei Shen then ask me help him type a message why him 'lover' never reply him.
I dunno anything bout them how to type so simply type a message.
I send him ask forward to her, he say later she dun wan him.
So i dunno got send a not.
Then he say wan see my darling.
I dunno wat to do so i tell him wait i ask my darling first.
So many of my friends want to see my darling but i dun feel like letting them see.
They later big mouth around the school and everyone will know.
After smsing, i play computer again but Qiao Zhen not online.
So bored cant chat with her.
Luckily, i today din think of her but ony my darling.
Except when i online coz ony she to chat wif.
So like this bored one whole day lor.

wat is this feelings..

I have nothing else to do so i'll write my blog earlier.
Yesterday i woke up at 7, parents we're sorta quarelling wif each other beside where i was sleeping =.=
But i went to sleep again when they stopped and woke up at 9.
I kept waiting and waiting for Qiao Zhen's message only did i remember her phone had already expired, sobsobz.
I'm sorry ya darling but i don't know why do i miss her so much.
I know that she doesn't like you so do you to her.
But i just dunno why do i miss her so much even so.
I'm not in love with her but why do i love her so much?
Sob sob, im reali clueless what's my feelings now.
The whole day i keep thinking and missing Qiao Zhen.
When was doing work till playing computer.
I still kept missing her, sobz.
I kept on9 but she nvr did on9 till bout 11.
But even so, it's like she doesn't wanna chat wif me ='(
So today i was whole day thinking of my darling but more of Qiao Zhen =''(
Darling im sorry, i know i wanna be loyal to you and love you only.
But i dunno why do i suddenly miss Qiao Zhen so much.
Sobz, i dunno wat to do, i reali dunno wat to do.
It's all my fault who ask me wan treat her so good.
Now this happens to me.. I wanna cry ad *Sob sobZ*

sob sob

Yesterday i woke up at 10+ bit later then usual coz i slept at 4+.
Then, Qiao Zhen so nice wake up same time as me^^
We smsed for awhile then she wanted to watch show.
So, she went to mandi i do my facebooking and chatting lor.
When i saw my darling on9, I asked her to talk to Zilin and Qiao Zhen.
So Zilin and Qiao Zhen vs my darling in talking.
They keep saying she's faking it and this and that.
Zilin wasn't so bad she didn't reali say anything that bad.
But Qiao Zhen, she said my darling wasn't human ='(
She somemore say my darling pian tai!!
I hear oso heartache d.
*Sob soB* and it's all my fault coz i invited them to the room.
Okay, after that, when finished, Zilin apologized to my darling.
But Qiao Zhen pula still don't like my darling, *sob*
What to do, i can't force her to like my darling can i?
After that it was like any plain old day of doing nothingness.
But yesterday was the last day Qiao Zhen can sms.
Her phone expire d, wanna cry liao me.
But though it's the last day, she still reply so slow.
She was taking care of a baby her mum took in as nursing her.
I sorta hate and envy the baby.
Qiao Zhen care so much of the baby but never care bout me oso.
Sigh, wat to do, the baby stays wif her most of the time.
So nothing else happened, i'll just end my blog here for the day.

Sigh

Yesterday was just a normal day.
I woke up at bout 9 which is bit later then usual.
Smsed Qiao Zhen but she was still asleep.
I was rather moody so i went to play facebook coz it it may help brighten my mood.
At bout 11+ only Qiao Zhen wake up, reali envy her can sleep till so late.
We smsed for awhile ony then stopped coz she wanted to play game with her brother.
I continued facebooking and luckily my mood did brighten up.
Bout 3.30 i started to get ready for tuition coz i thought car coming at 4.
Mana tau, car pula come at 4.30 make me wait till bored.
Tuition was fun but i dont know why after tuition i was moodless.
Before the start of tuition, me and Boon Hua were playing.
We pinched each other but i didn't pinch that hard.
Then he, he dug his nails into my skin.
Till now, my skin still got marks and it's already 1 day +.
After tuition, Jye Yih said wanted to tickle me.
But i guess she forgot or something coz she fled straight after tuition didn't even say bye='(
After coming home i ate dinner then watch Phua Chu Kang.
After show i do some stuff till bout 11.
Then from 11 till 1 i go iron clothes.
Sms Qiao Zhen ler, she pula reply so slow.
She ask me dun write on my blog wat we chat bout that time but.
I forgot wat did we even talk about =P short term memory.
Then i continue facebooking while sms Qiao Zhen.
Suddenly, Qiao Zhen say she wan sleep nite nite and nvr reply d.
Sob so bad dun wan accompany me.
So i just continued facebooking till 4+ only went to sleep coz scared later parents kno =3

Oh ya, yesterday 1st day New moon movie come out but i never go watch.
Sob, reali wanna go but no transport and oso parents wont let.
Wat to do, wish can go watch soon, reali wanna kno what happened to Bella, Edward and Jacob in the show^^
To those who've seen the show, plz tell me how izit.
I reali am excited wanting to watch the show xD

why..

Darling why are you doing this to me.
You're lying to me aren't you?
Why do you want me to think it's true?
You're always and have always been lying to me am i right??
Why do you want me to think it's true??
When i put A and B together, they don't fit.
You want to know why they dont fit?
Coz either one of them is a lie of both of them are lies.
What you're telling me now and what you told me before are two total different stories.
But why, why cant you just ler me go and you continue wif your stuff?
Why do you still want to play wif me?
What can i bring to you others cant?
Do you reali not love the others like you said or are they just lies?
I dont think you're telling me the truth.
You're jz telling me lies and more lies aren't you?
You're just playing with everyone's lives am i right??
You dun reali care bout my feelings at all right?
So why must you still lie to me for??
Why must you treat me so cruel and keep lying to me.
You ownself know yourself better.
What good will you get out of lying to me?
Hurting me or cheating me, you choose.
So why darling, why must you.

miss

Yesterday nothing much happened.
Start of the day, go tuition then keep lying down.
Too tired so din reali hear wat teacher was teaching xD
Qiao Zhen wan sms her mana tau when tuition ony she wake up.
Wait from 9 till 11+ for her reply. Sigh
Then when come back from tuition, online.
Then sms Zilin, she say she hate my darling. *sob*
I dunno wat to do but i never tell my darling.
Then after that, Qiao Zhen sms wif her she reply so slow.
Then she tell me playing game.
At 6.30, i go bring books to Taman Rakyat wan pass to Qiao Zhen.
She pula reach at 6.50 make me wait.
While waiting, my stupid brother keeps following me.
I ask him go away he dont wan. I so felt like killing him.
When Qiao Zhen reach d, my freaking brother shocked coz i pass book to girl.
He say wanted to kill him/her but when kno is a her, he scared.
So i pass the book to her then she faster run, scared of my brother dunno why.
Then she sms me say my brother very fan, dun like him oso.
Ony i remembered i got a very nice book wanted to pass to her.
But she left so fast wat to do, so bring home again lor.
Then at night, i on computer awhile.
I keep off and on facebook.
Got i time Qiao Zhen ask me am i me a not.
I wasn't in a good mood but i replied yes.
Then she ask me wat her blog name is.
I said Qiao Zhen, not full lar she ask me the full name.
I reali no mood so i jz write one word babi.
After that, i off facebook then sms her say im sorry.
She pula reply say she hate me. *sob sob*
Then I sakit hati so go sleep lor.
After that, wake up continue sms her.
Oh ya, i forgot, yesterday my darling sakit perut, coz eat insects i think in Thailand.
I hear d sad coz cant help her meredakan the pain or help her suffer ='(
So at night, she said better d then she go sleep.
Then Qiao Zhen i sms her, she so slow reply.
Play game again, sigh keep play game not sienz wan meh.
So after she off9, we continue chat till 2.
She ask me why i dun wan leave my darling..
I tell her coz i love her and i'll never leave her wan.
So she say she dun wan care bout me ad wan leave her a not not her problem.
I never even ask her care she pula like this. *sob*
So she sleep, i keep thinking and missing my darling till fall asleep =P
Hehe

This is too long but read it if you want

Too many things happened yesterday, i dont even know where to start.
First morning wanted to wake up by 6 wanted to accompany Qiao Zhen.
But I end up waking up at 7 then when sms her, kena scolding by her.
Say dun wan waste money sms, but make her sms till super sms.
No offence but 50 cents oso make so much noise?
Was dreaming but in my dream oso can hear phone alarm.
But hear d oso never wake up =P
Then sms till bout 8 her camp started in church.
I at home so sienz so continue sms her.
She pula scold me say ask me go i dun wan, end up i alone at home.
Then noon i on msn, mana tau Zilin message me.
Ask me leave my darling.
I kept gaving reasons but she still keep ask me leave her.
Sigh, so after awhile, i tell her that i'll talk to my darling first before leaving her.
By the way, those who dont know who she is, you dont need to.
Then Qiao Zhen say at camp, got someone talk bout love life and whatever.
She say i should have gone coz it's bout me.
I dont even kno where is her church how to go?
So like that lor, she say wanna ask for me but the person ad went home.
Lucky =3
Then after that, Qiao Zhen was there having fun i at home alone boring.
But lucky i never go.
Qiao Zhen there hav to do so much work for her group XD
If i go, she sure ask me help her wan.
But her group people so bad throw all the work to her.
Okay, then after that, she finish d so we continue sms.
She then say she wan sms 300 but ony sms bout 180+ i think.
But finally, she slept before reaching 200 but it was my fault make her have to sms.
Then at night, I smsed my darling twice ony she replied.
Mana tau she was in thailand.
So we smsed for awhile and i told her what happened bout people asking me to dump her.
(By the way, i wont say out everything that happened coz it's a secret ;-3)
So we chat on the phone till bout 11+
Suddenly she called me.
I was too shocked i din dare to answer the phone.
But when i dare, the line cut off d.
So i tried calling her back twice, she clicked cancel.
Then she asked me to on my msn.
I'm supposed to be asleep but i risked it to chat wif her.
So we chatted till 2 i think then someone came out of the room.
I quickly turned off the computer then lied down on the bed.
But phew, it was my dad going into the room from downstairs.
But when i chat wif her, i made up my mind already.
I'll never leave her nor will i stop loving her.
And this is all that happened yesterday i think =/
Thanks for those who read finish the whole thing.
But to those who stopped halfway, i dont blame you.
It's rather boring actually but it's true at least.

miss you

I love you and i miss you.
Do you in turn the same?
I think of you and dream of you.
Do you even care?
Why do i love you.
Why do i care of you.
When you always hurt me.
Your the light in my life.
But im the toy in your life.
Is this even fair?
Darling i cant stop this feeling.
Why must you treat me so cruel.
Do you reali love me?
Or are you jz lying to me.
If you reali do love me.
Why do you stick to them two.
Why cant you just love me alone.
What is it that i dont have yet they do.
They dont reali care bout your feelings.
I think that they dont.
Yet you stick to them more then me.
Just pushing me aside.
Why must i love you.
You're the one i love.
The one i'll always love.
Even if i have to die doing so.
But you dont care a thing.
About what my feelings for you.
Leaving me blindly loving you.

for you

When the sun rises, the flower blooms.
When the sun sets, the flower dies.
When i met you, my heart bloomed.
When you leave me, my heart dies.
Never to bloom again, for it hurts deeply.
But you the sun, will atill shine again.
For you dont know, that love can kill.
You are still young, treating love a game.
You do not understand, what love can damage.
For all your love, have never been true.
You only feel that, everyone will love you.
So you dont care, how they reali feel.
One day near future, you'll be badly hurt.
For you didn't appreciate, how others treated you.
You will be hurt, when you finally love.
Love someone that badly, you'll die for them.
But they in stead, play wif your love.
And hurts you badly, having fun doing it.

hi

Hi everyone. This is my blog.
Though it's not as good as others, it's still mine so please give some respect.
Let me start wif introduction.
My name is Low Guo Soon.
Age currently is 15.
I'm a male.
Birthday is on the 4th of June 1994.
Height im not sure but i think is bout 180+
Weight i very long no go weigh so i dunno
I am from Klang and still am in Klang, staying in southern park.
Currently going to SMK Kwang Hua
Loves to read, write, music and chat.
Current favorite subjects are english, maths, geography and science.

This is my blog so there are some rules i wish all veiwers to follow.
First, this blog belongs to me so i'm allowed to write what i want.
Second, no spamming or bad words please.
Third, i wont be updating my blog everyday but i'll do it every chance i get.
Forth, i'm not that good a blogger so please give some feed backs.

Thx for viewing my blog =3