Wrong thoughs

If you wanna read this post, first i wana tell you something..
Don't think too much.. I thought too much so i wrote this but i was wrong..
But i didn't wanna delete it oso.. So mustwell, post it right?

Darling, sorry it's all my fault.
I know that i suck and never did deserve you.
But i still continued loving you the same.
Now though i know that you no longer love me but i'll continue loving you sorry.
You may not want to leave me for fearing some stuff so i'll take the first step to leave you and just love you from afar.
As long as you're happy, it's good enough for me.
Everyday i've been waiting for you for your dad never did want us to be together till i even got sick and still am but i continues waiting for if get to be with you for even 5 minutes, dying's also worth it.
I guess, i may change my blog,email and block you from everywhere.
So that you'l go back to your old life as if i never did exist in your life.
But i'll continue loving you imagining that you're happy always.
I don't think i'll continue with my blog for it reali hurts bad enough.
Every second without you hurts my hear like a knife piercing through it but it was worth it.
I got to be with you though not forever but for a period long enough making me really happy.
And i'll never love anyone else like i promised.
You're the only one i'll love till forever.
So i guess i should tell you goodbye then.
I guess this is how it feels to be forced to leave the one you love in order for them to be happy even if it means having to hurt oneself..
But nevermind, you taught me loads of new stuff making me a diferent person from before.
I really done know how i'll live without you or if i'll continue living a not but i guess you'll never know.
You'll be too busy with other people never needing to care bout me ever again.
Sigh, i guess i was always jealous of him for being able to be with you more and closer yet i'm like invisible to you.
I guess i was always jealous bout the people round you especially those you're very close with yet hated thse who touched you without your permission.
But now, i can be jealous and do things i wanted to do, to be emo and hurt myself again.
Sigh, why am i still writing this blog now.
I already cant stand the pain so i guess this is really the final words i'll tell you..
Darling, i'm sorry for my past wrong doings.
I'll still love you i guess but i'll never tell you, you will never know.
But i just wish you'll be happy so i'll perish from your life forever.
I love you

promise

Life for me sucks, it hurts me everyday.

There's nothing to do, nothing to say totally.

Bring hurt by everyday, missing you every night.

I wish to die, yet never can i.

For i had promised, to never leave you.

Promised you that forever, be by your side.

I love you fully, more then you know.

No god or devil, will pull us apart.

God devil man souls, i swear that forever.

Your power i'm immune, from blocking my love.

Love you'll never control, live you'll never conquer.

Love with my heart, live with my life.

Heart beating for her, life protecting her always.

Our love is immune, protected by only ourselves.

Though others object, we make our future.

Love you my darling, promise you together forever.

My love'll never fail, promise i'll forever keep.

Time

A time to miss, a time to love.

Missing you always, loving you forever.

Being there for you, in joy and sorrow.

I swear my vow, my loyalty and love.

To you my darling, only forever to you.

Though looks will change, my feelings never will.

For however you become, my feelings never change.

You could be perfection, or even a freak.

Love you the same, feelings will never distinguish,

Though life was bitterness, you proved me wrong.

Just because of you, i have changed plenty.

I don't know how, to ever thank you.

I may be ugly, stupid and a brat.

I have hurt you, hurt you very deeply.

Didn't want do it, but facts cant change.

But there is something, is your choice right?

Do you or not, regret anything about this.

Because i have blocked, all negative thoughts.

I have of you, those i'll ever have.

But in my heart, i feel something wrong.

Having continues sleepless nights, but cant realise why.

Is there something wrong, are you avoiding me?

Many days passed by, your behaviour also changes.

Isit because of me, the stress you're in?

Poem sorta

Im too bored and i cant stop missing you darling.
I cant do anything without thinking of you.
Sigh but i oso cant sms you or call you.
Dad said i must drop my usage till 50 bucks or my line gets cut off.
*Sob soB* i reali miss you soo much..
Since i cant do anything, i must well just copy the stuff i wrote here ==
Plz leave some comments ya, i wanna know how bad they are.

In the sea of flowers, there's no two flowers alike.
In the world of roses, there's always one hiding somewhere.
If you look closely, you will find it easily.
But when you find it, you will notice it's not perfect.
There'll still be something wrong, coz there's torns around it.
So you've to be careful, for something may go wrong.
You may acciddentally break it, or hurt by it's torns.
So you've to be gentle, before something goes very wrong.
Darling do you know that, you are the perfect rose.
Though there are still torns, i dun mind getting hurt.
I'll handle you with care, for fear of hurting you.
You do complete my life, without you life's total darkness.
I'm just a small fish, in the vastic blue ocean.
I'm just a tiny one, being curious of it's life.
I say and do things, end up getting into trouble.
I'm just a small fish, you're a perfect little flower.
From two total different worlds, we vow our true loyalty.
That we love each other, no matter who objects it.
Being there for the other, holding each other so closely.
We loyaly pledge our vow, promising as we say this.
We will love each other, no matter what lies ahead.
We will make our future, not following gods own planning.
Loving each other till end, being by the other's side.
Crossing oceans and climbing mountains, still being together we promise.
No human nor any being, stop us loving the other.
For our plans are made, to being together till forever.

why..

Darling why are you doing this to me.
You're lying to me aren't you?
Why do you want me to think it's true?
You're always and have always been lying to me am i right??
Why do you want me to think it's true??
When i put A and B together, they don't fit.
You want to know why they dont fit?
Coz either one of them is a lie of both of them are lies.
What you're telling me now and what you told me before are two total different stories.
But why, why cant you just ler me go and you continue wif your stuff?
Why do you still want to play wif me?
What can i bring to you others cant?
Do you reali not love the others like you said or are they just lies?
I dont think you're telling me the truth.
You're jz telling me lies and more lies aren't you?
You're just playing with everyone's lives am i right??
You dun reali care bout my feelings at all right?
So why must you still lie to me for??
Why must you treat me so cruel and keep lying to me.
You ownself know yourself better.
What good will you get out of lying to me?
Hurting me or cheating me, you choose.
So why darling, why must you.

miss you

I love you and i miss you.
Do you in turn the same?
I think of you and dream of you.
Do you even care?
Why do i love you.
Why do i care of you.
When you always hurt me.
Your the light in my life.
But im the toy in your life.
Is this even fair?
Darling i cant stop this feeling.
Why must you treat me so cruel.
Do you reali love me?
Or are you jz lying to me.
If you reali do love me.
Why do you stick to them two.
Why cant you just love me alone.
What is it that i dont have yet they do.
They dont reali care bout your feelings.
I think that they dont.
Yet you stick to them more then me.
Just pushing me aside.
Why must i love you.
You're the one i love.
The one i'll always love.
Even if i have to die doing so.
But you dont care a thing.
About what my feelings for you.
Leaving me blindly loving you.

for you

When the sun rises, the flower blooms.
When the sun sets, the flower dies.
When i met you, my heart bloomed.
When you leave me, my heart dies.
Never to bloom again, for it hurts deeply.
But you the sun, will atill shine again.
For you dont know, that love can kill.
You are still young, treating love a game.
You do not understand, what love can damage.
For all your love, have never been true.
You only feel that, everyone will love you.
So you dont care, how they reali feel.
One day near future, you'll be badly hurt.
For you didn't appreciate, how others treated you.
You will be hurt, when you finally love.
Love someone that badly, you'll die for them.
But they in stead, play wif your love.
And hurts you badly, having fun doing it.